Saturday, November 24, 2007

Neglected and Abused

Have you ever felt neglected and abused? The definitions I found online for neglected and abused are

1.To pay little or no attention to; fail to heed; disregard: neglected their warnings.
2. To fail to care for or attend to properly: neglects her appearance.
3. To fail to do or carry out, as through carelessness or oversight

1. To use wrongly or improperly; misuse: abuse alcohol; abuse a privilege.
2. To hurt or injure by maltreatment; ill-use

I've been feeling neglected and abused lately. Ok, that's not really true. I haven't been neglected or abused but I've been doing the neglecting and abusing.

I've been neglecting Jesus- I haven't been having my quiet time and haven't been praying and putting my trust in the Heavenly Father like I should. And because of that I feel like I've been abusing His love.

I've been making other things more important that God. I've put those other things first in my life and man, that just doesn't make for a very productive or positive life! I just haven't felt right lately and there is no question about the reason for feeling that way.

I don't know what it is. I start out doing my quiet time and praying really well. But then I slowly find that I'm getting up in the morning and finding other things to do to occupy my time instead of going to Him first. Why is it so easy to get distracted like that? Soemtimes I wonder, "why can't it be easier to read my Bible and pray and put Christ first?" But then I stop and think- why SHOULD it be easy? When God gave up his Son so that He would die for MY sins I know it wasn't easy.

I know I've said this to myself a hundred times and I've even posted about it on this blog- but I am making a promise to God, to myself and to anyone that is reading my blog- I will make sure to have a quiet time and specific time of prayer everyday. Not just those prayers that are sent up haphazzardly during the day when I "need" something from God. But a true solid prayer time.

One thing that really bothers me is that DH and I are always talking to the boys about how important it is to put God first in our lives and I'm not even doing it. What kind of example am I setting? Not a very good one.

So, I'm gonna ask a favor of those of you that read my blog. Please pray for me that I will follow through on my committment to do this!!

1 comment:

jodi said...

You can bet that I'll be praying for ya, Beth. I have the same struggle even though I know in my heart of hearts that my day is 10 times better when I start it out in obedience to the Lord. But it never fails that one day I wake up and realize that I've been selfish. I can't believe He puts up with me! :)