Lately I have been putting into practice the Three I's-I've been Irritable, Irrational last but not least an Idiot! Yes, I will admit it. I've been a total idiot. Let me explain-
Over the last fewdays, weeks, ok months I have been slowly losing my mind. Something has taken over my body and mind and it has turned me into a living breathing witch! I've been horrible. I get angry at the drop of a hat. I am amazed that anyone in my house still has a head. They must somehow be able to regenerate because I am constantly biting them off.
On top of these lovely behaviors I am also not sleeping very well at times, which only serves to exaggerate the other symptoms! And then there is the whole- I could make a wig out of all of the hair on my bathroom floor- thing! Not to mention that I feel like I am in a total brain fog 75% of the time!
As things progressively got worse I realized I needed to talk to my doctor about everything that was going on. So during my annual exam I pulled my list out and starting rattling off each and every symptom. Guess what he had the nerve to suggest? He thinks I'm going through the P word. Yep, Peri-menopause! He gave me a prescription for Ambien to help me sleep (it has become my new bestest friend on occasions) and one for Yaz, a low dose birth control. What? He just threw two words (ok, 4 really) at me that I did not want to hear. Peri-menopause and birth control pills.
Stubborn girl that I am, I thought there had to be something else wrong- no way was I going through peri-menopause- I'm "only" 41. So I quickly made an appointment with my primary care physician, who just happens to be A WOMAN! Surely she could figure out what was wrong. Because there had to actually be something wrong! Right?
She tested my thyroid, cholesterol, sugar, etc. All tests came back fine. So back to the drawing board. A friend suggested it may be a parathyroid issue. Back I go to see her and ask if she'd check my calcium levels. Guess what, she'd already checked them. They are a-okey.
So what do this mean? My stars, I really must be going through peri-menopause.
So now, here is where the whole idiot thing comes in. I was upset. I was almost in tears (there's the irrational thing creeping up again). I wanted there to be something WRONG. Hello, are you an idiot? Oh wait, I've already answered that question- yep, I'm an idiot.
It took my dear sweet DH to make me see the light! I was talking to him on my way home (using my hands-free speaker of course). I told him that all of the tests came back fine and do you know what he said? "Well, that's good news!" What, good news? Hello, that means I am in peri-menopause! Do ya not understand? Then I stopped and thought. You know what? It IS good news. I don't have anything that is really wrong with me. I'm entering a normal phase of life. I WILL survive this.
And then I stopped feeling so sorry for myself. I threw a wet blanket on my own pity party. I prayed and asked God to help me through this period in my life.
And you know what? I feel better already! And sitting here at my computer and admitting that I am an irrational, irritable idiot has made me feel a little better too.
Thanks forlistening reading!
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On top of these lovely behaviors I am also not sleeping very well at times, which only serves to exaggerate the other symptoms! And then there is the whole- I could make a wig out of all of the hair on my bathroom floor- thing! Not to mention that I feel like I am in a total brain fog 75% of the time!
As things progressively got worse I realized I needed to talk to my doctor about everything that was going on. So during my annual exam I pulled my list out and starting rattling off each and every symptom. Guess what he had the nerve to suggest? He thinks I'm going through the P word. Yep, Peri-menopause! He gave me a prescription for Ambien to help me sleep (it has become my new bestest friend on occasions) and one for Yaz, a low dose birth control. What? He just threw two words (ok, 4 really) at me that I did not want to hear. Peri-menopause and birth control pills.
Stubborn girl that I am, I thought there had to be something else wrong- no way was I going through peri-menopause- I'm "only" 41. So I quickly made an appointment with my primary care physician, who just happens to be A WOMAN! Surely she could figure out what was wrong. Because there had to actually be something wrong! Right?
She tested my thyroid, cholesterol, sugar, etc. All tests came back fine. So back to the drawing board. A friend suggested it may be a parathyroid issue. Back I go to see her and ask if she'd check my calcium levels. Guess what, she'd already checked them. They are a-okey.
So what do this mean? My stars, I really must be going through peri-menopause.
So now, here is where the whole idiot thing comes in. I was upset. I was almost in tears (there's the irrational thing creeping up again). I wanted there to be something WRONG. Hello, are you an idiot? Oh wait, I've already answered that question- yep, I'm an idiot.
It took my dear sweet DH to make me see the light! I was talking to him on my way home (using my hands-free speaker of course). I told him that all of the tests came back fine and do you know what he said? "Well, that's good news!" What, good news? Hello, that means I am in peri-menopause! Do ya not understand? Then I stopped and thought. You know what? It IS good news. I don't have anything that is really wrong with me. I'm entering a normal phase of life. I WILL survive this.
And then I stopped feeling so sorry for myself. I threw a wet blanket on my own pity party. I prayed and asked God to help me through this period in my life.
And you know what? I feel better already! And sitting here at my computer and admitting that I am an irrational, irritable idiot has made me feel a little better too.
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