Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Answered Prayers

I have to admit that sometimes I say my prayers and I feel like I'm just rattling off words. I don't know what it is, but sometimes I feel like I'm just saying the same old things. I know that's terrible but I'm just being honest.

Anyway, a couple of weeks ago DH and I had a big argument disagreement and at the time we just didn't discuss it. I was hurt and couldn't even talk to him. I spent the next day feeling really hurt and down. I cried a lot during that next day, I brooded, fumed and was just flat out angry! I was holding it all in, feeling like I was carrying a huge weight on my shoulders.

But then that night I had to take Mark to baseball practice and I prayed the entire way to practice and then entire way home. I am usually not a very fair fighter. I am an extremely emotional fighter. I tend to take things very personal and I wear my heart on my sleeve. I cry very easily and that just makes things worse. So I prayed that God would help me to be calm when DH and I talked. That I would not get emotional but would find the right words to explain to him exactly how I was feeling. By the time we got home I felt so at peace. I felt like that weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. We still didn't talk about it that night but the next morning before the boys got up for school I approached him and asked him if we could talk.

I was so calm, I didn't cry, I didn't yell, I didn't fall apart. We talked, and then we prayed together. Something we don't do nearly enough.

I know that God always answers our prayers- He just doesn't always answer them the way that we want Him to answer them. But in this case- He blessed me more than I could have expected. I have honestly never had such a peaceful feeling as I did driving home that night. So what have I learned? I need to trust the Lord more with my daily life. I need to pray specific things- I need to pray with more than just words- I need to pray with my heart!!!


jodi said...

I'm the same way. Glad you took it to the Lord and found the peace that only He can supply!

Katrina said...

Thanks for sharing this, Beth. I think we all go through times when prayer seems harder or less "connecting" than other times. I know I sure do. But I, too, have seen God answer from-the-heart prayers in amazing ways (and more than once it involved a "discussion" with my husband!).